8.09.2015

Affordable originals!




Hello friends,

I've just sorted through a drawerful of drawings - some new, some old - and have made the best of the bunch available for sale for the first time. You'll find them all right here: zoetilleyposter.etsy.com. They range in price from $45 - $60, and what that means is, a steal of a deal!

Also, are you on Instagram? I am, and I'll be announcing more prints + originals as they become available there: instagram.com/zoetilleyposter. Also at facebook.com/ZoeTilleyPoster.

Happy summer days to you,
Zoƫ

7.19.2015

Mini house tour!









It's a mini house, but it feels just the right size to me. I wanted to take some pictures when things were at the very peak of tidiness, because it's all downhill from here, baby. The last big thing there is to do is make a concrete countertop and install the kitchen sink, and oh, what a luxury that will be!

After a year of living on Hungry Raven Hill, much has come together - we have a new pine floor, refrigeration, an oven and a shower. We have screens on the windows, and on the other side of those, is the bugs. It all feels rather civilized. The downside is, our thick walls muffle the nightsongs we slept under the spell of last summer, in the tent. I rarely hear an owl hoot, and haven't been lullabyed to sleep by the coyotes in months.

Matt and I both have been fighting burnout. Now that the house is comfortable, we've been dedicating more time to our day jobs (for Matt, that is a temporary gig making pizzas with a mobile wood oven/caterer; for me, selling art at farmers markets and craft fairs). And we are both ready for a break. We miss camping. We miss spending time together not working. We are trying to get back to that. I will keep you posted, and in the meantime, I hope you are very well.

4.08.2015

On the cusp








Winter is melting, and this makes me feel panicky. Because where did winter go? I was going to have all my shit together by the end of it. But here we are, and I've haven't. Any of it. At all.

But... I love this cusp - the one where there is all the exquisite expectation of spring, none of it spent yet, only anticipated - and it is stretching long this year. A morning of strong sun rays warming our forest, drawing sap up from under the frost, and then all of it crystallizing and dissolving into dense snow flurries that block out the mountains across the swamp. When this happens, I say thank you kind merciful earth, for I am not yet ready.

Our little sleeping loft is a quiet cocoon. My aunt sent us a quilt made of old sweaters for our bed. It is teal and purple and weighty with sleep and warmth and darkness. I am not prepared to crawl out from up there.

In the past year, we built a house. We sold a house (just two weeks ago, and with much relief). I have never stopped thinking about my illustration career, business, marketing. I have been solely focused on accomplishments of the roof-over-our-heads-and-food-on-our-table variety. Matt has shouldered more than his fair share of those burdensome thoughts as well. I am sick of them. Recently I have felt a shell of a person, and the only time I've been really me was the day I followed a filthy trail in the snow, littered with bits of lichen and studded with perfect little ochre-colored turds, to the den of a porcupine, tucked under a tumble of mossy boulders, deep inside an enchanted bower of red elder canes. I saw the porkie's muddy paw prints and I inquired at the mouth of his cave. I saw where he went up a sugar maple and stripped the fine branches and, presumably, swayed and pooped in the breeze. I tracked his route to a hemlock, neatly crowned, the ground beneath strewn with deep green trimmings. The snow slowly melting and revealing layers of porcupine travel patterns, established over a season.

With taps and buckets borrowed from friends, we've collected sap from seven of our sugar maples, and boiled it down into the first batch of Hungry Raven Hill syrup. The days are longer now, and it is nice to be drawn outside. Yesterday we watched a barred owl and a sharp-shinned hawk fighting over territory. They were like two fragments of the forest - big flakes of gray bark - broken free and bashing each other in the branches. This morning there were little duck-footed waddling paw prints in the fresh snow. Raccoon? He went hither and thither and not much of anywhere at all, then up over the bank and away.

That is the small news. The big news is that Matt, my very own Matt(!), performed a miracle on Easter Sunday, and brought forth clear clean water from deep under the ground. We have running water! You can turn a handle and water comes out of a pipe, into your drinking glass! It doesn't have algae in it, and you don't have to twist your ankle and slide down an icy precipice to get to it. Halle-fucking-lujah! And thank you, Matt. I am eternally grateful.

2.09.2015

Enormous Tiny Art Show #17, plus an etsy sale!








The Enormous Tiny Art Show is back! Over the holidays, I took a two week break from house construction and the vortex of chaos+debris we have been enjoying here at Hungry Raven Hill over the past many months. While Matt and his sister drove to Duluth to visit family, I spent my (working) vacation at Mom and Dad's house. Besides stuffing my face and cuddling the cat, I drew these six new works for ETA17. This is a really fun, diverse show with work by over 40 artists. If you can't see it in person, here it is online: Enormous Tiny Art Show. The drawings above are available on my page.

And also, there's a sale in my etsy shop! I'm moving my tiny studio into my teeny house, and there isn't room for all this art. Would you like some? zoetilleyposter.etsy.com



2.02.2015

The settling in







I've found it difficult to write here lately, and I think it's because this house is a big hungry gobble-monster, and what it likes to eat best is creative energy. So I just don't have much left over to write with. But I'm going to try.

We finished the drywall, and vacuumed up all the dust. The gobble monster doesn't eat dust, but it does make dust. You see.

That was a happy day, the vacuuming one. An even happier day was when we finished painting, just this past week. I belabored the point of choosing a color, as I am wont to do, but I can make fun of myself now because I picked the perfect one! It is a warm, smoky gray with a little lavender and orchid. Pictures are going to look really good on the walls. Cacti in bloom are going to look really good in the deep window wells. My cat, when I get one, is going to like this color. It's going to run right in the door and curl up in a sun spot because it feels so at home.

We have a loft for sleeping. I am pretty sure it is a bad idea to move into a sleeping loft just when you are becoming an arthritic old person, but oh well. There is also the problem of having to pee, because the ladder in the middle of the night is kind of extra discouraging. But oh well again. I have discovered in recent months that there is a lot a person can get used to, and besides, the loft is very cozy and fort-like.

Our insulation and passive solar are working! We have not yet burned a cord of wood, and if the sun is beaming in the windows, the temperature rises fast and there is no need for a fire. Sometimes there is a need to run outside and stick your head in the snow, but that is an okay problem to have, as problems go.

The tent collapsed under the heavy, wet snow that also knocked out our power for a week in December. We were not in the tent (we'd moved into the house), so it seemed quite funny. Important belongings were salvaged, and the rest will wait til spring.

Matt is spending a lot of time in the utility closet, where he has two tanks, an electric panel and a whole bunch of pipes and wires and conundrums. Sometimes he comes out for snacks.

That's just about everything! We have rounded the corner from feral beasts living in the midst of an itchy debris heap to domesticated children sleeping in a pile of sticks with a clean warm blanket. That feels like a milestone.

12.01.2014

Thawing our paws by the fire










Well friends, I am pleased to tell you that WE MADE IT!

There was a long faltering moment, or maybe it was more like a couple of weeks, when we felt just on the verge of throwing in the towel on this whole crazed notion and retreating to our house in Scranton (which has not yet sold), where the gas appliances hum and there is heat, running water, and Mexican takeout.

It was cold here, so very cold. The tent was no longer homey and inviting.

Waking up to temps in the low teens is a motivating situation. It makes you want to get the house insulated so you can move in. It is also dispiriting, which is interesting, isn't it? On the one hand you think, we're fucked. And on the other hand your last ember of optimism flares weakly with hope.

I have often thought to myself in recent weeks, you are like a cat on a rug in the sun. You are like a squirrel on a branch in a swaying breeze. You are like a sloth with a martini in your paw. When it is warm, you only want to curl up in the heat of the beautiful kind glowing world, and when it is cold you are like what the hell is wrong with me?! why didn't i store any nuts?

So many standards of civility and hygiene go by the wayside when all the buckets of water are frozen, the dish soap is frozen, your fingers are numb, and the path to the spring is icy and  treacherous and sharp. Outdoor baths, dippered from a dutch oven brimming with hot water, are romantic and lovely in the summer landscape. In the winter those baths hurt and make me cry, even when taken in the washtub in the tent in front of the electric heater.

Which is why I took to relieving this tragedy by telling Matt my funny story called We Are Two Dirty Trappers. (I just finished reading a historical novel with a trapper in it, and this trapper was a filthy, foul, wretched individual.) When Matt says, do we need to wash a dish?, I say, no! we are two dirty trappers! Because a trapper would only have one frying pan, and he would eat breakfast, lunch and dinner from it, with no cleanings in between, if he were lucky enough to have such a round assortment of meals. He would drink his dram of rum and be content with a sputtering campfire before him and the weather and the wolves at his back.

But all that - the wishing we'd built this house faster, the living as two dirty trappers - that's in the past! I am typing to you from inside our toasty new home, where the fire flickers sweetly. The house is insulated! It has no sheet rock or running water yet, but that will come in time, and we will heat water on the stove for washing ourselves and our dishes until that day. I am just very glad to be warm and dry.

Besides the actual insulation project, which took some time (we covered the interior stud wall with special fabric and rented a machine to blow dense-pack cellulose behind that), there was a long and fraught ditch-digging saga. I will not go into detail regarding the tractor breakages that occurred, I'll just give you the happy news that our well pump is in, our water, power and phone lines are run underground to the house, and all trenches have been refilled. Shit's not all hooked up yet, but we're close.

We have a house! 'Tis the season for feeling thankful, and I am so very thankful for this new wooden box. Our most excellent family and friends helped greatly with this project, and I'm very thankful to them, too. I will try to stay on task with Matt and complete the drywall, so that we can all celebrate together soon. I will not heap up my wool blankets on the hearth in front of the wood stove, and I will not hollow out a small nest for me in the center, and I will not arrange my coffee and my pencils and my tower of books and paper so all can be reached from within. Not just yet.

10.13.2014

Mount Moosilauke




There was one day when I said to Matt, The End Is Nigh, and I can not toil another hour without losing my faith in this godforsaken fools' dream and plummeting deep, deep into the bourbon bottle, not to reemerge til the new moon.

And Matt said to me, well why don't we go for a hike instead? And so we climbed Mount Moosilauke, and it was beautiful, and might I say: if you choose only to bag your peaks on clear days with long views, you will miss out on the sad dark heartbreak of the high, cold fog, where the boreal chickadees are.